The schedule goes: Mon-Wed pack (well, help others help me pack), Thurs the van arrives. After Thurs who knows? Straight into chaos or debunk to my mum's for a few days? My son is away with his Dad. I am showing him the house tomorrow, then I figured he's best off enjoying himself over Easter. I feel some space to be emotional will spare him some scenes. I don't always have control in times of high stress, so this is the best thing.
I don't envisage having everything sorted on his return. In fact I want him involved in the sorting - it will be important for him.
But our last move was so traumatic (it fell through on the day, and all our possessions were driven off in a van because it was too late to unload, leaving us in a completely empty house overnight. I won't bore you with the rest, but we lived out of boxes for weeks and it was a nightmare) that I want to spare him the stress of our few bigger belongings being shifted this time.
These are moving times indeed. I haven't been able to take any photos lately, but thought I'd post this one I took, when Spring had just sprung.
Spring isn't totally passing me by, but I'm so preoccupied, tired and worried that I feel I'm not embracing it as fully as I might. Hopefully things will look up and this very difficult patch will pass. I am at least pleased to report that things are becoming increasingly amicable and supportive between us, even as we part. He's probably thinking "Thank God!". I know I am at times, but it's more about getting out of a situation than escaping a person. Because none of this is about blame.
I'm sure some reflective posts will follow when things settle down. I really want to share thoughts on how all this came to pass because it's not all about the personal dynamics at play. Our experience is one that many people must be facing, or have faced, when presented with a sudden, all-encompassing change in the previous modus operandi. But enough for now. I ducked out of Dr Who for a few mins, but feel I must return, though quite what the hell is going on I really couldn't say.